Yes.. I received my presents two days ago from my beloved cell group members!! I cant wait to show them to the whole world because the things that they sent me are like the biggest surprise in my life!!!
I actually celebrated my birthday this year alone. I tried to call up my friends in Germany to celebrate it with me but everyone seems to be so busy, so i just have to celebrate it alone in my room.. I have actually forgotten about my birthday until my dad managed to send me a birthday card all the way from home without me knowing it.. That surprises me too!! However, my happiness came to a standstill when i know that i cant really celebrate my birthday like how i would celebrate it in Singapore.
I tried to remember the wonderful birthday party i've got last year in Changi. You know, reading my cards in Germany and remembering the days on my 21st birthday. The cakes, the people, everyone... I tried to be happy on that day lar... hahaz..
I received my parcel when i was doing my studies. I thought that it could be something for Christmas, because Christmas is just round the corner. AS i opened the box, i'd found out that IT WAS FOR MY BIRTHDAY!! I almost cried!! hahaz!
Here are some of the pictures i took with my pressies..
Yea, i really like this shirt! Gym shirt is for working out...:) Haha!! So gay right?
I wanna thank everyone who made this possible for me!! Just to let you all know that you all have really blessed my life here. To me, to remember a birthday is one of the most important thing in my life... Thank you all guys once again.. You know who you are...:)
According to chee yong, he feels that i have to be grateful to my dearest shift mates( i have already written that one in!!!) and to the one who has been sleeping with me... Chee yong, you happy now?!
The time of snowing has finally arrived. I was so thrilled when i saw the snow. I couldny help it but take my camera together with me to take some photos. The playground outside my house. The trees right outside my house. Look! Snow and rubbish together!!! The view outside of my room!
Manz.. i cant wait to see more snow! I mean, how beautiful can it get!!!
Warum fühlt du sich so leer an, wenn du mit mir sprichst? Warum fühlt du sich so leer an, wenn du bei mir bist? warum fühlt du sich so schwer an, wenn wir nichts mehr sagen? warum können wir nicht reden, nach so vielen Jahren??
warum fühlt du sich so leer an, wenn du mit mir sprichst? warum fühlt du sich so leer an, wenn du bei mir Bist? warum fühlt du sich so fern an, wenn wir uns nochmal sehn? was bringt mir dieses leben, wenn du einfach nicht da bist?
Deine haut wird ganz kalt, dein blick wird ganz leer, dein Atem wird leise, dein Kopf wird ganz schwer
Was hat dich so so zerrissen? was hat dich so verletzt? was hat dich und dein leben und dein Herz so zerfetzt?
Was hat dich so so zerrissen? was hat dich so verletzt? was hat dich und dein leben und dein Herz so zerfetzt?
was bringen meine Worte, wenn du sie nicht hörst? was bringt meine Liebe, wenn du sie nicht spürst? warum können wir beide uns der Wahrheit nicht stellen? warum kann ich dieses Loch in meinem Herzen nicht füllen?
Deine Haut wird ganz kalt, dein Blick wird ganz leer, dein Atem wird leise, dein Kopf wird ganz schwer
Was hat dich so so zerrissen? was hat dich so verletzt? was hat dich und dein leben und dein Herz so zerfetzt?
Was hat dich so so zerrissen? was hat dich so verletzt? was hat dich und dein Leben und dein Herz so zerfetzt?
Was hat dich so zerrissen? Was hat dich so zerrissen?
Das du nicht mal mehr weißt, dass du nicht mal mehr schreist, dass du nicht mal mehr merkst, dass dein leben zerreißt?
Was hat dich so so zerrissen, was hat dich so verletzt, was hat dich und dein leben, und dein Herz so zerfetzt?
Was auch immer du tust, was auch immer du sagst, ich pass auf dich auf, ich bleib für dich wach. Ich bleib für dich wach...
Was auch immer du tust, was auch immer du sagst, ich pass auf dich auf, ich bleib für dich wach. Ich bleib für dich wach...
why do you feel so low, when you are talking to me? why do you feel so low, when you are together with me? why do you feel so burdened, when we have nothing more to say? why cant we have anymore to say, even after so many years together?
why do you feel so low, when you are talking to me? Why do you feel so low, when you are together with me? why do you feel so distant, when we are seeing one another? what is this life going to bring, when you are simply no longer there?
Your skin is so cold, you no longer look far, you no longer breath in deep, and your head is getting heavy
What has turned you so tattered? What has hurt you? what has torn you and your life and your heart apart?
what can my words bring, when you do not want to hear it? what can my love bring, when you can no longer feel it? why cant we both state the truth to one another? why i cant i feel the hole in my heart?
Your skin is so cold, you no longer look far, you no longer breath in deep, and your head is getting heavy
What has turned you so tattered? What has hurt you? what has torn you and your life and your heart apart?
What has turned you so tattered? What has hurt you? what has torn you and your life and your heart apart?
what has turned you so tattered? what has turned you so tattered?
the thing that you do not know about, that has caused you never to write again, that has caused you never to feel again, that has turned you torned and tattered?
What has turned you so tattered? What has hurt you? what has torn you and your life and your heart apart?
what you have always been doing, what you have always been saying, i will always take care of you, i will be always be alert for you.
what you have always been doing, what you have always been saying, i will always take care of you, i will be always be alert for you.
I have shifted to this beautiful place called Konstanz, but I have been very busy these few days to even notice the beauty of it! Today is my "liberation day", well something like that. So I thought that it would be good that I go and visit the beautiful parks and sceneries in Konstanz.
This is how the streets in Konstanz looks like. Notice the church and the buildings around it? The people who lived in Konstanz made it a fact that the churches must be taller than the other buildings.
The funny guy in Konstanz. There are a lot of sculptures like this one all around Konstanz. Take a look at the ones below.
The sculpture of the Bishop from Konstanz
The same guy I suppose. I took the pictures just before it snowed.
This is the tower which was supposed to protect Konstanz. Apparently, it was destroyed by the fire and this is what was remained of it.
The city center
More of the city center
Another picture of it!! I just love the buildings.
The Konstanz Hotel. Almost all the buildings in Konstanz look something like this.
This is the park in Konstanz. Well, because of the temperature (3 Degree Celsius) and the fact that the people are still working, this park looks really deserted!
The bench! Well, nothing special about it actually. Ha-ha!
I was immediately drawn to this bench! I could imagine the ah peks sitting around the table playing Chinese chess and drinking kopi O! Well, this is actually English Chess though. Man, I miss home!
The edge of the harbor! The lady sculpture attracted me immediately. It looks really like as though it is from a legend.
Haha! What for a sexy sculpture!
The Konstanz Bridge, which was supposedly destroyed by the fires in the 1500s, is seen here in her majestic look.
The romantic Konstanz Park. I just love the falling leaves and the atmosphere. It makes Autumn more beautiful!
Today is the day after my birthday. I could still remember the days when I was still back there in cell group when I celebrated my 21st birthday with the rest of my close friends and my cell group members. There was really nothing like it.
I went back to Mannheim yesterday to cook Hainan's Chicken Rice for the rest of my friends in Mannheim. Although the rice and the chicken was really good I should say, I did not spend enough time in Mannheim to enjoying it. I reached Mannheim at about 11 am and I had to leave at about 4pm in the afternoon. It was really sad. I actually felt like crying, because never did I feel so miserable on my birthday. I would rather not be reminded, that my birthday is coming, than to be reminded and felt miserable that no one is celebrating it with me. I miss church, I miss her and now, I miss the fact that I am not able to be home with my family to celebrate my birthday. Haiz.
Life in Germany has taken a totally new level of challenge in my life. Coming to Germany was already stepping out of the comfort zone for me. Little Being in Konstanz is like the ultimate form of stepping out of the comfort zone for me. I will definitely not do this ever again. The living standard is high, the people are not really as friendly as I thought, and everything is very old fashioned. I wonder why. I have always thought that the Germans are very modern. I mean, the cars are so popular in Singapore. Why are they still so backward in their thinking? This should not be the way. This was what made my life in Germany so difficult.
GOD has been very important to me in my life and HE is especially important in my life right now. I really feel very alone right now. I mean, no friends, not even German speaking friends. I mean, I do not really mind if Sayuki or some other friends who are German speaking are together with me right now in Konstanz, but it is just not so. It is just so lonely. I really want to go visit the church this Sunday right here in Konstanz. I do not really care if it is a charismatic church or it is just a traditional church. I want to be in the presence of GOD, because after all, GOD's presence is found in the church. I believe that I will be touched when I go to the church in Konstanz this Sunday, just like the days when I was in Mannheim.:)
The no guitar days are over. I am going to visit one second hand shop this Saturday together with Ena and I am going to buy my first guitar, my German guitar.:) Haha! I believ that I can use that guitar to pick up more skill and hopefully come back as a even more anointed and skillful guitarist! I really want to glory GOD in my guitar playing, and I believe that it will come to pass, because GOD has given me a gift, a gift that I will never lose, a gift that will leave my life totally transformed. I believe that GOD is going to use me even more and more for His kingdom. I believe that whatever that I am doing here in Germany has a cause. Whatever that I am doing right here in Germany is supposed to mount me to become a better man that I already am. GOD USE ME!!
Yea, i really like this shirt!
Gym shirt is for working out...:)
