Really bored... But that's the way right? Go blogging!!

I just finished watching online service. I know its like 2000hrs in Singapore, but I really have to blog... ARGH!!!



While i was singing the worship song FIRST, i was reminded of the valentine's day in Church ( or was it valentine's day? the part where PB went to take the flowers?) Couples were singing the song FIRST to their spouse, and the lovey dovey feeling was in the air. Everything starts to show up while worshipping GOD. I suddenly remembered why did I do the singlehood vow. Everything was being clarified when Pastor was preaching, saying about how he has to build a convenant with GOD because he has a weakness for drinking. I remembered why did i do my singlehood vow.. I will list down the reasons why..



It was true.. I did like someone before singlehood vow( i dont deny it). I was pretty close to her and stuff like that.. So, feelings for her was building really fast. Although I liked her for at least a year, there was this particular incident that kick start the whole liking thingy. It was crazy.. I did not know why, but i became very interested in her life. September kicked in really fast, and then came december.. I knew i had to do something, because i am going to Germany. I cant tell her that I like her now. Its impossible.. So i bottled up everything to myself, decided to call her less then frequent and finally, go on a singlehood vow..

I felt really selfish, going on a singlehood vow.. I have no idea how does she felt about this whole idea of singlehood vow, but I do not want to ruin her life. Well, eventually she found out about the singlehood vow, but i mean, i have already made a pledge with GOD.

Whether i can be with her or not is another thing altogether. I wonder why GOD reminded me of her, but if GOD has reminded me or her, there must be something to do with her. I hope, and i pray:) After I made the pledge, I kindda like make really insensitive mistakes which never happens before. It was stupid, and i dont really want to talk about it ever again.:(